Milkboy finally blogged at 4:53 PM
Exactly, exactly. That Jesus sure was a wise man.

Ok, it's official.

#1: I work for a cult.

We just had our "Code of Conduct" training class. In this "class" we were forced to watch a 30 minute video which was created specifically by and for our company that included a cab driver who reminded me of the conductor from Thomas the Tank engine but who was distinctly NOT Carlin so that sucked. This cabbie went through the "road to integrity," while a chorus of voices sang a jingle in the background composed of "Tell the truth, Tell it all, Tell it now!" This is disturbing on so many damn levels.

Where the fuck does this company who shall remain nameless get off using the money that should be going to pay my comission, which they just dropped to a lower level, and who is about to lay off a ton of people, to produce this piece of low budget, cult tactic TRASH!


#2: I do believe that I hate my job. (Not exactly on that concious everyday loathing level, but on that underlying stomach churning, what the fuck was I thinking kind of level.)

I really think that its my job that's causing my health problems. Or largely anyway. Even my physical Therapist told me I needed a new job. I'm beginning to think he's right. Every day I deal with bullshit from customers, other companies, etc. etc. that is compunded by the fact that my own company is so fucked internally that you have to jump through 30 hoops just to get anything done. And as they load more loans on me the shit gets deeper and deeper.

Plus, I've come to learn, AGAIN, that people, in general, are inherantly FUCKIN STUPID. I ask for this or that and am completely specific about what I need. If I say I need ALL fucking pages, I need ALL fucking pages. Not just the ones YOU feel are important. You stupid fuck. So now I have to fight with this bitch to get the shit I need.

And on and on and on.

The big problem, is I happen to be good at what I do. But I've grown to despise the corporate hell that I exist in. (And it's not all corporate hell I despise.) I just have the opportunity, since I'm peoples who knows peoples, to take the occasional peek behind the curtain and hate what I see.

This fucking blows. I'm gonna have to see what career builder can turn up for me. Cuz this shit ain't gonna work.